I'm in my thirties, an entrepreneur, a business owner, part jet setter and just recently married and having taken steps many years ago to ensure that I didn't become a mother to to soon, imagine my shock at finding out that I was pregnant after making one decision not so long ago, that has now become life changing!!! Let me start from the beginning.....
After getting married in 2012, my husband and I went to the Caribbean for the most glorious of honeymoons and a couple weeks off from the hustle and bustle of working life. Children were discussed but collectively that was a future a few years away for us, as we enjoy spending our Christmas and New Year abroad in a new country every year and flying were we will, when ever we get the opportunity, on the spur of the moment and a child would put a bit of a spanner in the works...
Then early in 2013 my husband turns to me and says, 'I know you want to have children and as your thirty two time is ticking!! Wow I thought, my own husband highlighting my fading youth... he continues 'maybe you should look at taking your implant out?'. Now for me this was a big deal and as my husband and I have been together for over 7 years, I know he is worried and scared about becoming a father due to 'bad history' and for me, I chose to have the implant to show my support and love for him, even if it meant giving up the choice of having children.
As I said It was a big deal, I turned to him and said 'Are you sure? as I do not want to take this out if you do not want to have children, as I need your support', 'yes' he said 'because it's you and I love you, book the appointment with the doctor'...
So I booked my appointment which in its self was a bit of a palaver, since I could not get an appointment for three weeks in the clinic I needed to remove the implant. The date was eventually set for the 27th March 2013, which was only a day away from when we took all of our staff to France for a bonding trip.
Now during the time between the decision and the appointment, it went to the back of my mind and I carried on as per usual, client drinks, smoking (as yes I am a smoker) and late office nights but for my husband it was at the forefront.... he starting stressing more, Mr Jack (JD) become a close friend for a few nights and then that's when he opened up on his feelings... but we stuck to the appointment.
27th March came and went and I was left with a small hole in upper arm covered by a plaster and bruising. Then the next day off we went to France for our staff trip and at the same time, down I went with the Flu and sever cold! Great start to the Easter weekend....
I put it down to my hormones going loopy and that I was run down, as I never normally get hit by the flu but I certainly tried to keep pace with everyone that weekend and even arranged for an 'adult Easter egg hunt', which involved tequila.... all I can say it went down a treat.
On our return to the UK, things got back to normal albeit suffering a perpetual cold, but then I started feeling very tired and the best word to use is 'odd'.
Around the third week in April, my bust got larger and I went up to a DD from a D but I was not late yet... but the feeling that things were different persisted, especially needing the ladies more, my Husband even asked are you late? so my bust must have made an impression! During this time I however had a massive project to undertake and therefore I didn't want to be distracted by potential pregnancy thoughts, but to put my inner concerns to rest, I decided to buy the early response test and did it the night before the 'D day' of our company event which was hosting hundreds of people.
Positive.... yes it had two lines.... mmmm my brain went, I looked at the box to double check one line means no and two means yes..... then I thought I wonder if the test comes out positive with a phantom pregnancy? or it could be wrong as I did do it in the early afternoon (as I am not one for rigid rules, like early morning testing is recommended).. so I left it and then saw my sister at the event who I confided my thoughts too... and yes she was highly happy, but I on the other hand stated 'it was far to early to tell anyone and I need to do another test, as I couldn't even be 4 weeks' and my fingers flew over the type pad on my mobile for sites on Phantom pregnancy etc.
The outcome of the test was then pushed to the back of my mind and I was focused on the day job and company event...I then confided in my husband later that day but he said he did not want to know then, as we had a job to do. By night time during the celebrations with the team, he sidled up to me and then asked me quietly what I wanted to tell him and I said..'Honey, I think I may be pregnant'.......
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